December already?!?

You know, there are so many times that I blog....in my head. :) And from the disparity in the date from this post to the last, you may infer that that's the only blogging that has been going on around here. Perhaps another reason I haven't written is that besides just plain business of life with four young children, when things are going swimmingly, I don't always feel the "need" to get it all down. This is an unfortunate result of my thinking patterns~ when I am struggling, I feel a conscious need to see my thoughts, perhaps translating them into words to find some meaning in the mayhem. BUT, when my life is so full of blessings, and the left part of my brain is functioning well, I can get by with mentally cataloging, and distance myself from the written word and get by without participating in it. And there is another reason for my semi-hiatus from the blogging world. As you can see, my last post was the day before my longed-for trip to Scotland. And then I was there, amidst it all, loving every minute, soaking it all in, and then we were home again. And I didn't want to admit that it was over, which writing about it in the past tense would indicate, and in a strange way, I felt that it was so special, so personal, I felt a reluctance to share my treasured memories of this once in a lifetime journey of discovery and fun and wonder that I took with my best friend. And now I am in the thick of the Christmas and Birthday season, caught up in a whirl of holidays and festivities and family and so happy to be here. But, I have finally been given the time, at the same time as I had the brain power and the children's cooperation, to write for a bit. This is all to say that "I am here, I am excited about sharing all that has gone on and I am planning on becoming more faithful to recording not only my angst and wonderings, but truly, my blessings, as this blog was created to expound upon." So, to the 2 or 3 people who read this, "Hi!!!!" or should I just say "Hi Tammy!!!" and I will be back soon, I promise!! :)