Why am I blogging on a Sunday?!?!? Because Nate is happily being climbed upon by the children on the couch while watching Nascar (I believe our descent into redneckhood is almost complete) and the baby is sleeping, and I am just stinking lazy. There are things I could be doing (always) but I just don't feel like it. I layed around this afternoon while 3 out of 4 kidlets napped and I slept in this morning. It's nice to feel a bit of the stringent tenseness melting out of me, being replaced by a semi-relaxed state of sleepiness.

Ah yes, I actually have content to document here. I went to the Dr. this week. It was mostly an exercise in futility, but I guess it's good to know things are "as they should be" pronounced by someone with letters after their name. I went because I've been having this weird abdominal swelling every month around the time I am ovulating. The Dr. said he really didn't think there was a connection between the swelling and ovulation, but if I really thought there was, maybe I should do something to suppress my ovulation, like start running 5 miles a day. He also said I should lose 10 lbs, and maybe that would help, but he really didn't have any idea what is going on. Some good has come of this, though, since in relating the story of the visit, some knowledgable friends have given me some ideas as to what it actually could be, and some ideas of things that could help. I am going to be looking into doing a cleanse soon, and thinking more along the lines of endometriosis. Regardless of what exactly is going on, I think Nate is more inclined towards our getting a treadmill now. If it is ovulation, endo, or some GI thing, exercise will help. Another thing exercise will help is this growing off and on battle with my....well, for lack of a better word...chemical balances. I refuse to call it depression, as it isn't to that point yet, but the times between the struggles are getting smaller, from years to months to weeks and I can see down the paths starting to reopen before me now the glimmers of dark places I have not been to in a long time, and have no wish to revisit. SO, I think getting a treadmill and MAKING it a priority to get daily exercise will be good on many fronts. I dream about running all the time now. I am looking and trying to be judicious and a good steward and just waiting for the Lord to bring the right deal along. We shall see.

On an entirely different note, I am really trying to decide which of Grace's "mispronunciations" is my favorite...."Dark Baiter" (Darth Vader) or "Sweeping Booty" (Sleeping Beauty).